WHAT I'M WORRIED ABOUT THESE DAYS
I have several things that are weighing on my heart and mind these days, most of which are centered around my health issues and their aftermath.
1) I worry that I will wind up dying alone. I love my kids, and I'm glad they have lives of their own that keep them so busy. But when I spent three days in the hospital at Easter, and none of them came to visit me, and only one of them even talked to me, I felt like the stereotypical old lady who never has anyone visit her when she's in the hospital.
2) I worry that my kids will drift apart after I'm gone. They are nowhere near as close as they used to be, and about the only time they see each other these days is for organized family events, usually done for my benefit. I know how easy it is for siblings to not spend as much time together when their parents are gone, and I don't want that to happen to my kids and grandkids.
That's really all I can put into words today, but there are nagging little things that bother me every single day.
No comments:
Post a Comment